Milicia Artistika
2 min readNov 3, 2021

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Being

I’m not certain, but I think being is not a eternal fact, because I know that being is a thing.

When I say “being is a thing,” it means that it’s a condition of being.

A condition of being, in that I can be something other than I am, and I can enjoy being something other than I am.

But even so, I can’t use the word “is” as if it were something permanent.

Being is a condition of being, and not the other way around, and once I’m what I am, being is no longer what it is.

Being — that condition of being — can, like being, change.

And my having — that condition of being — changes as well.

I think that’s important, because, in this context, having is also a condition of being.

Being is not something I can have — but not being is also something I can’t have.

It’s because of the way things are, and I can’t change that, and even so, in the world’s way, I am changing.

That’s probably, in some ways, an easier thing for me to accept than it is for some people, and that’s okay, because it’s still the way things are, and this is what it is.

But it also reminds me of how important it is that it’s still the way things are, and how important it is that it’s still the way things are, and how important it is that it’s still the way things are — because in the world, that’s the way it is, and there’s nothing anyone can do to change it, and the sooner that we understand that, the better off we’ll be.

The world is changing, the world is always changing, even if it might seem to me like it’s not.

And I don’t need to fear that it will change more rapidly than I can imagine, because in my understanding of how things work, that hasn’t always been the case.

And for all of these reasons, I think it’s good for me to take myself and my mortality seriously, even if I can’t change the way things are — because I know that being — my being — isn’t something I can, or can’t, change, and that understanding is a very different kind of comfort than the feeling of helplessness.

I think it’s good for me to take my life seriously, even if it doesn’t matter in the way I think it should.

I think that taking my life seriously is good for me because it tells me that there are things in life that matter, and things in life that don’t, and things in life that only I can control, and things in life that can’t be controlled.

It tells me that the things that don’t matter are just that: they’re not things I have any control over, and I can’t change them.

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